Baby number 4 coming soon.. rainbow baby.

Friday, July 24, 2015

 When I write that number "4" I think back to my early twenties and how I thought people were nuts to have more than two kids. I would ask myself why do they want to get all big and pregnant more than two times, why do you want to change that many diapers, have that many sleepless nights, and the worst of all things change from a nice sporty car to a big SUV or even worse a van!! But as time ticked on and I enjoyed my two boys more than life itself I realized having more wasn't so bad. Actually the opposite and that achy feeling came to have another. Kurt and I got pregnant quickly and easily and little King came splashing into the world. Literally, a home birth in the bath! We enjoyed taking him out everywhere since this time around I was a seasoned mom and I didn't care who saw my baby partying at Tommy Bahama's at 9pm. We traveled often with this new little one and our big boys and then came the day we thought we needed even numbers in family. We talked and talked about all the reasons not to have another baby but the feeling we weren't complete didn't leave us. We started trying for another after King's second birthday and it took us a while but we conceived finally after more than a year. I became quite ill quickly and something didn't seem right with the pregnancy. We went in for an early ultrasound at 6 weeks and seen the little heartbeat but that feeling didn't leave me. The following month we went back for a scheduled dating ultrasound and my instinct knew to expect the worse. The tech didn't see a heartbeat. We lost the baby at ten weeks and I was sent home to let nature takes its course. A week later we ended in the ER with complications and a rare infection and I was admitted for a few days after surgery. We were scared for my health and being an older mom was turning thirty six we decided to be happy with our three healthy children.

  Fast forward a few months, a surgery for Kurt to close the factory and a move to a new country. My body just wasn't feeling good or right. I was tired, nauseous, hadn't really had more than a spotting period and had the nagging desire to kill Kurt. After calming down and realizing jail time isn't a good look for me we got a test and bam! two lines before I could stop peeing. So here we are adjusting to that number again. Four, 4, quatre, cuatro!! No matter how you say it we are now going to be "those" baby maker families. Due beginning of January 2016.


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